Well I guess I’ll add this part, even though it’s a bit off topic.
My name is SX here, but there’s many more names behind the true SX. I “Work” for a small website based on radio controlled hobbies. I know a bit about everything, a jack of all trades, but a master of only a few. I build systems for people I know, like the “NetBox” which I built for my brother a month or so ago. It’s a good machine.
However, there’s a much deeper side of me which I’m going to reveal in the next few paragraphs.
I’ve lived a hard life, rising from nothing in the middle of nowhere. I’ve never had true “broadband” internet. I’ve never had the “cool kids” stuff until I forced myself to have it. My biggest problem is the fact that I just don’t have the ability to get it through my head that there’s more to the world then a minimum pay rate and a dead end job. I’m currently a student in the CCNA Network Administration program with DeVry university, so I’m on the right track! Where will I go from there? Time will tell in the coming years, but for now I’m stuck in this decrepit hole where technology hasn’t even though of visiting. I’m stuck, nowhere to turn. Unemployed due to a layoff which has basically killed the place where I worked at. Jobs are… more than hard to find….
I guess the last month has daeded me into believe myself that I’m more or less a.. slacker? A drain on the economy? A waste? Is it my fault? Maybe, maybe not.. I don’t know what to believe anymore.. It’s horrifying to realize that I haven’t stopped working since I was 16 for more than two weeks… and now I’m at a month of dreadful laziness.. Help me… I’ve dug my own hole of personal misery and don’t know where to go anymore.
I guess this post is more or less a lax. A way to decide my own fate and release the tension on it. The subject is touchy. If you’ve read this, feel free to comment. I’m not depressed about it, just have a mindset that isn’t good for me unless I purge once in a while.. And I’ll tell you what, “sudo apt-get purge current-user-mindset” doesn’t work at all.. Keeps telling me it can’t find the package…
